Well tomorrow we fly to Brisbane for my surgery. I have to check in to the hospital at 5:45am on Monday as I'm the first on the list.
I've just finished packing, I'm so excited I'm not sure if I'll sleep tonight. Everyone keeps asking me if I'm nervous but I'm not, I'm just excited and wishing it was Monday already!
My wonderful husband is flying down with me, he is going to take care of me while I recover and we are staying at a motel next door to the hospital so it will be easy for him to visit since he doesn't have a license (long story).
I've downloaded about 10 new movies to watch while recovering, I've tried to miss the comedies as I remember to pain from laughing from my c-sections so I'll be trying to avoid that.
Well thats all from me, next time I update I'll be on my way to being a skinny biatch!
Bye!
Saturday, October 16, 2010
Wednesday, October 6, 2010
Uh-ow!
I can't believe I'm admitting this, but I just had a bit of a bulimic moment...I felt so damn guilty about eating the garlic bread I went and turnt the shower on and had it running while I stuck my fingers down my throat :-( I think I got it all up. Well I hope I did. I shouldn't have ate it in the first place. Pathetic really.
All booked and ready to go!
Well its been a little while since I have updated - what a slack ass.
I went to my appointment and I have been booked in for surgery on the 18/10/10. I'm so very excited but I'm stressed to the max at the same time. You see I'm waiting on approval from APRA for my superannuntion to be released to pay for the surgery.
I should find out tomorrow if its been approved, I bloody hope it is cause I've booked everything except flights. My holidays are booked, accomodation booked, babysitter booked...I NEED this to go ahead tomorrow.
I've been on optifast for the last three days and OHMIGOD I have been STARVING, I caved tonight and had some garlic bread, I shouldn't have but the hunger was killing me. I'm weak...there is a reason I need this surgery...I have ZERO will power. :-(
Ok so cross your fingers for me for good news tomorrow!
I went to my appointment and I have been booked in for surgery on the 18/10/10. I'm so very excited but I'm stressed to the max at the same time. You see I'm waiting on approval from APRA for my superannuntion to be released to pay for the surgery.
I should find out tomorrow if its been approved, I bloody hope it is cause I've booked everything except flights. My holidays are booked, accomodation booked, babysitter booked...I NEED this to go ahead tomorrow.
I've been on optifast for the last three days and OHMIGOD I have been STARVING, I caved tonight and had some garlic bread, I shouldn't have but the hunger was killing me. I'm weak...there is a reason I need this surgery...I have ZERO will power. :-(
Ok so cross your fingers for me for good news tomorrow!
Saturday, September 11, 2010
Off to the Surgeon Tomorrow!
What a week its been! I've been sick with the flu, hardly had a voice all week which makes being a property manager very difficult!
I've been really open and honest with work mates about the surgery, I thought there is no sense trying to hide it, especially when it comes to losing weight after the surgery I don't want to say its from a diet, thats just unfair to those who do diet. Also I'd have to explain why I'm only eating mushy foods and tiny portions. So I've told them the truth.
Everyone at work has been supportive which has been great, although one person has been a little negative. She wants to know why I can't lose the weight without surgery. Its hard to get someone who's never had a weight issue to understand how difficult it is to lose weight. Having to lose 5kgs is NOTHING like having to lose 50kgs.
Diet wise, its going well, I'm having 2 optifasts a day for breakfast and lunch and then a normal dinner. I've lost 3.9kgs and I'm not even really feeling like I'm going without. Just this morning my husband cooked bacon and eggs and while they smelt soooo good I easily said no when he offered me some. I was content with my coffee and optifast.
I have my appointment with the surgeon tomorrow. We are leaving here at about 4am and driving down to Brisbane. I have my appointment in the afternoon and then I'm staying at my sisters place before driving home on Tuesday.
I'm so very excited. Its all happening!
I've been really open and honest with work mates about the surgery, I thought there is no sense trying to hide it, especially when it comes to losing weight after the surgery I don't want to say its from a diet, thats just unfair to those who do diet. Also I'd have to explain why I'm only eating mushy foods and tiny portions. So I've told them the truth.
Everyone at work has been supportive which has been great, although one person has been a little negative. She wants to know why I can't lose the weight without surgery. Its hard to get someone who's never had a weight issue to understand how difficult it is to lose weight. Having to lose 5kgs is NOTHING like having to lose 50kgs.
Diet wise, its going well, I'm having 2 optifasts a day for breakfast and lunch and then a normal dinner. I've lost 3.9kgs and I'm not even really feeling like I'm going without. Just this morning my husband cooked bacon and eggs and while they smelt soooo good I easily said no when he offered me some. I was content with my coffee and optifast.
I have my appointment with the surgeon tomorrow. We are leaving here at about 4am and driving down to Brisbane. I have my appointment in the afternoon and then I'm staying at my sisters place before driving home on Tuesday.
I'm so very excited. Its all happening!
Saturday, September 4, 2010
Back to the Dr's
Well I just pulled out my letter from my GP that I had to get for my application to Apra (to access Super early for surgery) and my Dr hasn't put all the correct info into the letter. So back to the dr I go tomorrow. I have to get this right as without it, I'm not getting my surgery!
I've written my letter to Apra, my little sob story really, hopefully it works and they agree to release the funds.
I've been doing so well on my diet all week and now I'm home with Husband for the day my diet has gone out the window. First with pancakes for breakfast and now with mini sasuage rolls and party pies for lunch :-( Back to diet tomorrow though, I've bought yummy fruit to eat at lunch as the shakes just arn't enough and I still have my dinner but once I see my surgeon he'll surely instruct me on what changes I need to make prio to the surgery.
I've also filled out the forms for the doctors appointment, just a general questionair about body image etc. It made me laugh at one question about if I feel sad or depressed...I'm so heavily medicated for depression that I can't feel anything, but I know I hate me and my body, I just can't FEEL it.
Back to work tomorrow, I'm dreading it, 1.5 days off work and I know how much work is going to be in my intray. Oh happy days!
I've written my letter to Apra, my little sob story really, hopefully it works and they agree to release the funds.
I've been doing so well on my diet all week and now I'm home with Husband for the day my diet has gone out the window. First with pancakes for breakfast and now with mini sasuage rolls and party pies for lunch :-( Back to diet tomorrow though, I've bought yummy fruit to eat at lunch as the shakes just arn't enough and I still have my dinner but once I see my surgeon he'll surely instruct me on what changes I need to make prio to the surgery.
I've also filled out the forms for the doctors appointment, just a general questionair about body image etc. It made me laugh at one question about if I feel sad or depressed...I'm so heavily medicated for depression that I can't feel anything, but I know I hate me and my body, I just can't FEEL it.
Back to work tomorrow, I'm dreading it, 1.5 days off work and I know how much work is going to be in my intray. Oh happy days!
Father's Day
Well today is Father's Day! I've spent the morning making pancakes and watching my husband and son play the wii. The diet blew out the window as I too enjoyed the yummy pancakes that I made.
Not much is happening other then that, I have lost 1.8kgs but I'm going to lay off the weighing as I've become a tad obsessed with it and I have a mini break down each time I gain a gram or two. So not healthy.
I'm starting my letter to Apra today as I go to the surgeon next week so I want to have it all ready to send off ASAP so hopefully the funds are ready in time for my surgery. I really hope its in October!
I've got the bloody flu, I had 1.5 days off work this week becuase of it and the coughing is driving me nuts. Also both the kids have it so it won't be long beore the husband has it and we all know what men are like when they get the dreaded MAN FLU!
Ok got to start this letter to Apra. Byee!
Not much is happening other then that, I have lost 1.8kgs but I'm going to lay off the weighing as I've become a tad obsessed with it and I have a mini break down each time I gain a gram or two. So not healthy.
I'm starting my letter to Apra today as I go to the surgeon next week so I want to have it all ready to send off ASAP so hopefully the funds are ready in time for my surgery. I really hope its in October!
I've got the bloody flu, I had 1.5 days off work this week becuase of it and the coughing is driving me nuts. Also both the kids have it so it won't be long beore the husband has it and we all know what men are like when they get the dreaded MAN FLU!
Ok got to start this letter to Apra. Byee!
Monday, August 30, 2010
A New *Skinny* Me!
I’m fat!
There is no nice way of putting it, the scales don’t lie and neither do the tight clothes.
I’ve been fat for as long as I can remember but today I hit an all time low…actually an all time high…the most I’ve ever weighed. Today I stepped on the scales and it flicked to 122.5kgs.
:-O
How did that happen? Last time I weighed myself I was 114kgs how the hell do I gain 8.5kgs in no time at all? Not that 114kgs is acceptable, not by a long shot but OMG 122.5kgs???
So how do I get skinny? I’ve tried every diet under the sun but I just don’t have the will power to stick at anything. After following an online friends journey through her weight loss thanks to the gastric sleeve Op I had been tossing up in my head if this was something I should explore?
Both my sibblings have had lapband, one has been quite sucessful and has lost quite a bit but her loss has now pretty much stopped and she still has a fair way to go. And the other has had quite poor results due to not being able to get in for fills. So to me lapband was defiantly out of the picture.
So after much thought I messaged my online friend via facebook and asked her a few questions. She answered everything for me and told me the name of her doctor.
On Monday I made the call and I’m now booked in for the 13th of September for my initial appointment. I’m so excited!
I know it will be a long road to be skinny but its a road I definatly want to travel, I don’t want to be overweight for the rest of my life I want to be healthy and attractive and I want to live a long life!
There is no nice way of putting it, the scales don’t lie and neither do the tight clothes.
I’ve been fat for as long as I can remember but today I hit an all time low…actually an all time high…the most I’ve ever weighed. Today I stepped on the scales and it flicked to 122.5kgs.
:-O
How did that happen? Last time I weighed myself I was 114kgs how the hell do I gain 8.5kgs in no time at all? Not that 114kgs is acceptable, not by a long shot but OMG 122.5kgs???
So how do I get skinny? I’ve tried every diet under the sun but I just don’t have the will power to stick at anything. After following an online friends journey through her weight loss thanks to the gastric sleeve Op I had been tossing up in my head if this was something I should explore?
Both my sibblings have had lapband, one has been quite sucessful and has lost quite a bit but her loss has now pretty much stopped and she still has a fair way to go. And the other has had quite poor results due to not being able to get in for fills. So to me lapband was defiantly out of the picture.
So after much thought I messaged my online friend via facebook and asked her a few questions. She answered everything for me and told me the name of her doctor.
On Monday I made the call and I’m now booked in for the 13th of September for my initial appointment. I’m so excited!
I know it will be a long road to be skinny but its a road I definatly want to travel, I don’t want to be overweight for the rest of my life I want to be healthy and attractive and I want to live a long life!
Start of Something New…
Well here I am blogging, thought about it heaps before, wondered if I had anything interesting to say or if it was all a little too self indulgent? But I’m planning some major changes in my life and I’d like to keep a record of it so I thought hey why not?
So lets start at the start, I’m a 27 year old married mum of two, I live in Queensland and I work full time as a property manager. I’ve been with my husband for 13 years and my children a boy and a girl are aged 6 and 2. I have bipolar, not something I’ve told many people due to the stigma attached with it. Life was hard last year when it all came to ahead but the last 10 months have been better since I’ve got the treatment I needed. I’ll cover more of this later.
Friends, something I’ve begun to wonder about a bit lately, I’ve taken a step back and started to re-address the friendships in my life and wondered if they are more one sided then anything. Again something I’ll talk about more in depth later.
Family, ugh! Sometimes I love them and other times I loathe them but hopefully we are all on a path to learning to love and appreciate each other…guess what? I’ll talk about that more later.
So read my stories, comment if you like and follow me as I try and work out how to do this blogging thing…
I did have this blog on another website but I'm finding this one better so I'm just transferring my posts over so there will be a few updates on today's date.
E xox
So lets start at the start, I’m a 27 year old married mum of two, I live in Queensland and I work full time as a property manager. I’ve been with my husband for 13 years and my children a boy and a girl are aged 6 and 2. I have bipolar, not something I’ve told many people due to the stigma attached with it. Life was hard last year when it all came to ahead but the last 10 months have been better since I’ve got the treatment I needed. I’ll cover more of this later.
Friends, something I’ve begun to wonder about a bit lately, I’ve taken a step back and started to re-address the friendships in my life and wondered if they are more one sided then anything. Again something I’ll talk about more in depth later.
Family, ugh! Sometimes I love them and other times I loathe them but hopefully we are all on a path to learning to love and appreciate each other…guess what? I’ll talk about that more later.
So read my stories, comment if you like and follow me as I try and work out how to do this blogging thing…
I did have this blog on another website but I'm finding this one better so I'm just transferring my posts over so there will be a few updates on today's date.
E xox
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