Off to the Surgeon Tomorrow!

What a week its been!  I've been sick with the flu, hardly had a voice all week which makes being a property manager very difficult!

I've been really open and honest with work mates about the surgery, I thought there is no sense trying to hide it, especially when it comes to losing weight after the surgery I don't want to say its from a diet, thats just unfair to those who do diet.  Also I'd have to explain why I'm only eating mushy foods and tiny portions.  So I've told them the truth.

Everyone at work has been supportive which has been great, although one person has been a little negative.  She wants to know why I can't lose the weight without surgery.  Its hard to get someone who's never had a weight issue to understand how difficult it is to lose weight.  Having to lose 5kgs is NOTHING like having to lose 50kgs.

Diet wise, its going well, I'm having 2 optifasts a day for breakfast and lunch and then a normal dinner.  I've lost 3.9kgs  and I'm not even really feeling like I'm going without.  Just this morning my husband cooked bacon and eggs and while they smelt soooo good I easily said no when he offered me some.  I was content with my coffee and optifast.

I have my appointment with the surgeon tomorrow.  We are leaving here at about 4am and driving down to Brisbane.  I have my appointment in the afternoon and then I'm staying at my sisters place before driving home on Tuesday.

I'm so very excited.  Its all happening!

Back to the Dr's

Well I just pulled out my letter from my GP that I had to get for my application to Apra (to access Super early for surgery) and my Dr hasn't put all the correct info into the letter.  So back to the dr I go tomorrow.  I have to get this right as without it, I'm not getting my surgery!

I've written my letter to Apra, my little sob story really, hopefully it works and they agree to release the funds.

I've been doing so well on my diet all week and now I'm home with Husband for the day my diet has gone out the window.  First with pancakes for breakfast and now with mini sasuage rolls and party pies for lunch :-( Back to diet tomorrow though, I've bought yummy fruit to eat at lunch as the shakes just arn't enough and I still have my dinner but once I see my surgeon he'll surely instruct me on what changes I need to make prio to the surgery.

I've also filled out the forms for the doctors appointment, just a general questionair about body image etc.  It made me laugh at one question about if I feel sad or depressed...I'm so heavily medicated for depression that I can't feel anything, but I know I hate me and my body, I just can't FEEL it.

Back to work tomorrow, I'm dreading it, 1.5 days off work and I know how much work is going to be in my intray.  Oh happy days!

Father's Day

Well today is Father's Day!  I've spent the morning making pancakes and watching my husband and son play the wii.  The diet blew out the window as I too enjoyed the yummy pancakes that I made.

Not much is happening other then that, I have lost 1.8kgs but I'm going to lay off the weighing as I've become a tad obsessed with it and I have a mini break down each time I gain a gram or two.  So not healthy.

I'm starting my letter to Apra today as I go to the surgeon next week so I want to have it all ready to send off ASAP so hopefully the funds are ready in time for my surgery.  I really hope its in October!

I've got the bloody flu, I had 1.5 days off work this week becuase of it and the coughing is driving me nuts.  Also both the kids have it so it won't be long beore the husband has it and we all know what men are like when they get the dreaded MAN FLU!

Ok got to start this letter to Apra. Byee!